A Rant and an attempt to flush out ideas.

I'm still struggling to wrap around the concept of creating work with concepts that I have not yet reached on my own.

My works have been drawn out from issues and interests from my background.... a mixture of trying to understand and embrace my heritage.

I want  to share
I want to create art that pleases the eye
I want to make what comes out of my mind, and pour it out onto whatever medium I desire.

That's all I want to do. Am I allowed to claim the title as an artist or must I have a clear purpose in why I create besides the three lines above?

This is my last term in the digital arts BFA program and it has really pushed me to wonder what the @#$%  am I doing. In the art world with the word EDUCATION stamped all over it. I feel there seems to be a overriding need to control, to articulate, to put a piece up and take it apart bit by bit. Analyzing each fragment .... or is it?

Education + art definitely leads to explorations of interests and new ideas, but I can't help myself from thinking why should I explain? Why should I try to make the viewer understand?


I feel I am being pushed and pulled. ( a good thing in some cases) but if the pushing and pulling just leads me more into confusion and frustration then what is this?

In the beginning of the term I was told my works was intangible. Images, colors, etc that meant something to me did not mean anything to the small group of people that viewed my work.

Perhaps my work is for another audience? Perhaps one maybe able to relate better if they grew up in the same background?

So I pursued to teach and to share in my works. Creating simple cryptic pieces that people can solve and get the meaning. Perhaps I was thinking in the graphic design realm. -FAST and STRAIGHT to the POINT


So the response was just that. My work was not interesting, and the suggestions were the path that I had took in the very beginning, and that was to make work for myself.

"Don't worry about the audience."   

but in the end the conversation it goes back to the audience. I'm suppose help guide the viewer.

So I wonder who am I making work for?

 In the beginning my work was too vague and later, over flowing with too much information.
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The Garden of Chaos.

A revamp of my idea for my thesis project -PAPER PAPER PAPER CARD STOCK

A garden of images, symbols, ideas from both Chinese and western culture- a representation of my background/ the world where I "grow and cultivate."

Garden can also be a continuous changing place. = ME
A display.


-clouds/flower/architectural things/

A representation of my world. A combination of things.

Thus a black and white color theme.(?)
 A representation of the super straight forwardness and incompleteness.
Cookie cutting out generic visual images (STYLIZED to my liking,  images that i grew up with) maybe.... because generic images can also represent the generic ideas that I am being thrown in and associated to... which has grown on me and has made me who I am or what people say i am?
A rose, a peony, the carp, a four leaf clover. Don't know what where meaning derive from but the is well known in some respects.
Land scape idea. Two dimension in a 3 dimensional realm. Everything is flat. (White mat board type material. Laser cut images. Hung and free standing. With Vinyl detailing and outlines. Vinyl will also may also spill onto the walls and floor? Maybe.....maybe not

Cardboard. Paper. Reflects back to my first medium of interest. Artist from the the beginning and to the end. Simple cheap material. Ability to create my own world and environment just as I had done when I was young and using my imagination.

can only be viewed from the front. I only want the viewers to see my world from the front.
straight forwarded meaning.  Nothing else.

Can go into the garden and explore but being forced to go up super close and view incompleteness. not a full view.